Boy, I haven't been here for a while... I haven't had time to create a new look for my blog, so I'm just borrowing one for now. I don't know if I like it or not :) So, here it is, March again. I find myself thinking of the past alot every spring, even though this should be the season of renewal. It just feels so strange, knowing that under the snow, new life is waiting. I should be anticipating, which is to say, looking forward, but it is so hard. I smell spring in the air, and feel the days getting longer, the quality of the light is changing, and it all takes me backwards. I wonder if this will ever change for me. Will I ever get through a Spring without this tint of sadness? Of course, it may seem a little worse this year because Eric has moved out - I think that adds a sense of loss. Feels weird not having him here, even if he was driving me crazy!
But, enough of that. It might help if I start focussing on the things I want to do with my little patch of dirt I imagine to be a garden... I've got some seeds, a plant catalogue, and a few ideas. All we need now is to see the snow disappear, hopefully just a few weeks away. It's becoming a yearly ritual, I think - lots of planning, but very little actual gardening. Maybe this year!
5 comments:
It must be my lucky night.. Was just checking in to see if anyone had posted lately, and have found 2 so far...
I love the new look!!
Your March is my April-- Such a blend of emotions-- sadness will always be an ingredient-- must be-- otherwise --- thankfully there is a balance of new life, growth,
I guess Eric's leaving is part of the rhythm of life-- always changing-- but good news mama-- they never really leave!!!
I was just thinking,,, March brought you back here,, and April brought me-- to me it's kind of like a valve on a pressure cooker--
I like the new look of your blog. I hope we will start blogging again..
I don't know if it will ever change for you my love, but maybe it shouldn't change. I feel the loss as well. As you know, I am not good at putting things in words and usually say the wrong thing. But I do know how I feel every March..it's a mixture of sadness and happiness for having known him.
I think about him every day.
Love you lots...you are my heart.
Take care of the babes!!!!!
Make Jamie cut his hair...tell Eric that he is not falling (see Facebook).
My love to you all
Mommy xxxxx ooooo xxxxx
P.S. Just found out how to get here or would have replied sooner.
P.S. If you get the chance, could you create a new look for my blog?
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