Boy, I haven't been here for a while... I haven't had time to create a new look for my blog, so I'm just borrowing one for now. I don't know if I like it or not :) So, here it is, March again. I find myself thinking of the past alot every spring, even though this should be the season of renewal. It just feels so strange, knowing that under the snow, new life is waiting. I should be anticipating, which is to say, looking forward, but it is so hard. I smell spring in the air, and feel the days getting longer, the quality of the light is changing, and it all takes me backwards. I wonder if this will ever change for me. Will I ever get through a Spring without this tint of sadness? Of course, it may seem a little worse this year because Eric has moved out - I think that adds a sense of loss. Feels weird not having him here, even if he was driving me crazy!
But, enough of that. It might help if I start focussing on the things I want to do with my little patch of dirt I imagine to be a garden... I've got some seeds, a plant catalogue, and a few ideas. All we need now is to see the snow disappear, hopefully just a few weeks away. It's becoming a yearly ritual, I think - lots of planning, but very little actual gardening. Maybe this year!
